i'm feeling a lil down i suppose? today's eating din hit me that badly but i put on 2kg! like wtf! OMG! i need free time to gym, rest and study! this is insane! im not going bongus fror nuts sure.. and sometimes i just want to stone, not eat,eat alot, gym, go crazy or sleep. whenever i shop at the supermarket, i'll buy to eat. but when i have them, i dont really want to eat. thinking that it might be too much at times. i wan to be vegetarian for the moment but yet again i want meat.

at times when i'm having my meal, i have nothing on my mind. At times i have stuff like. " omg, this will be super filling and i might eat too much today". and at times i'll eat, having nothing on my mind but cant stop. i'm just so afraid that i'm getting fat. BMI : 19? not even close. i simply dono what's in my mind. can i  just press the "pause" button?? sigh-