at this very moment im cliss with my bf. i really still feel fat. but not turning anorexic for sure. i have lovely meals from him and sometimes he's just afraid that i dun eat..  my PT, frens and bf said that i've slim down.. but im still fat.  flabby everywhere despite training..  

so now, tell me how heavy i look. for sure im lighter than the bluefin tuna (64kg)

at this very moment.. i'm just afraid my dad will leave us. ( leave as in leave the mortal world) i mean.. how the hell am i able to survive with my mom? this is insane! but well let's hope the day will not be any sooner.. i mean if i have choice, i wud rather have my mom to leave first :x