after the WHOLE of ytd.. wanted to call u.. but i jus realise we broke of ties... so nvm...


life is getting bad to worse lo... noe wad... janet noe i not in the mood... haiix sian... not in da mood to work lo... she ask me y i sad sad de.. lyk sian sian lidat.. kaox.. even janet aso realise.. i thot val left liao den nobody will realise... loL.. well.. janet treat me very well.. i guess everybody can c tat.. so not sure when will i leave.. val left liao... patt my head lo.. lyk i baby lidat lo... siao de.. almost make me cry. den the she giof me all her tidbits .. loL. wan me rmb her huh? loL well i will..

hmm.. mama today go iterview.. most lykly will get the job lo... hahasx...near jules haus.. jus a bus stp away.. 2day mama bought the england shirt n of cux i bought the germany shirt.. now we haf shoe n shirt.. nxt one we gonna buy will b the bag... hahasx... she lyk england flag n country so buy england.. i lyk germany history n country so buy germany.. buy cux of other reason n not of world cup..haha so lame ryte.. ltr go rochester.. jason n yunos will sae us liao...

hmm.. mayb i will bcome quiet liao.. im not sure la.. but jus dun feel lyk talking liao lo... jus dun haf the mood bah... so sian.. so hurt... so evertg..

2day b4 everytg happen. i went mama's ah ma's haus. went dere eat dinner . mama cut apple for me to eat.den i go put in the freezer.. well.. so cold so nice.. den after tat we went ntuc w ah ma.. we all go buy groceries.. den mama walk me home.. thot everytg was fine till i go hm..


and tis happen...

after talking ...


for everytg is tis wad i haf to do.. "gif up"

do i realli haf to gif up?? the ans is "ya" at tat moment its was jus shattered.. but y sial.. i realli cant accept tis fact..

slp is an excuse to hang up the fone

nv check hp is an xcuse to not reply msg.

no tym is an xcuse to not mit

do u ever noe how hurting is tiese few words??? so u noe???!!!

tis is all i haf to sae.. easy said.. im speechless... k??!! thnx the hurts ...

well.. ytd i,mx,jenny,mt,joyce n sky.. we all watch over the hedge.. hahasx i ,mx,jenny n mt wan watch de den met sky at the booth dere den we all watch tgt lo.. cwp no tix.. den we go sunplaza n watch lo.. so funny lo..

sian... haiixx.. so sad lo... mx leaving me liao... loLtats part of the story i sad la.. well.. i understand how my mama feel lo.. cux we in same boat. jus tat my parent dno their daughter(which is me) is lidat de.. dey aso scold scold de lo... wad the hell lo... haiixx..

~ i miss uu* lo... haiixx.. miss uu* so much lo.. i realli dno wad can i do to numb myself liao... leaving s'pore aso cant stop it de... i will stil thjink of uu* de lo.. haix.. mayb its jus the tym tats not ryte.. i realli bu dong wo neng zuo shen me le... haiyo... ppl wun understand how i feel de lo... onli my mama will understand cux she is in the same boat as me.. we both stupid to fall in love with dem** n wad we did is get in n nv cum out... haiixx.. the key very difficult to find u noe anot... i think wo zhe yi bei zi bu neng chu qu le.. dere mayb a chance, but its realli hard..~

cindy resign liao.. she gave the letter to mam jane liao. 26 june last day..haiixx.. she my buddy in swens lo.. i went in swens n she is my closest fren liao.. haiix.. so sad lo... but wad to do.. she going KL to study liao ma.. if not wrong 2 ,3 yrs den cum bac s'pore to work.. haiixx.. den i heard weilun aso leaving swens but not now la.. but one day... so many ppl lidat leave i work dere lyk no meaning lidat liao... haiixx.. so sad lo ..

mam jane is so good to us n we leave ... haixx.. swens dun hav to pay but u'll nv get such laughther n joy in a work place lyk swens de lo... tats the point... swens shud pay fnb stuff higher** loL... hahasx.. dey pay higher den i quit rochester..loL

aiya.. now headache lo... sian.. i realli dno wad to do ... haixx.. 2day wen swens..(to work) den weilun sae so long nv see me.. loL ask me which planet i go..wad onli lo.. den ask me go mars do wad... siao de lo... loL.. den i n cindy told weilun to look after siti properly..loL .. den he so siao jiu dui liao... ah xiong kip disturbing me summore... kip make me ask ah yi dno wad stupid qxn. realli siao de lo..

ah xiong look at my hp.. den he saw the wallpp.. the pic tat we took in sentosa... i was beside jules. den he sak hu's tat i sae my 1st bf lo... loL den he sae i gt bf liao... sae he handsome..loL den lyk diaox liao... dno wad happen i sae i no bf den he lyk not convince lidat.. harm bin lo... grrr-

haiix dun wanna continue liao.. write on nxt tym bah.. tat mx wan blogg liao... kip pestering me.. so let her use liao..

='(

im back... loL walao go dere i spend exactly 150bucks lo... loL spend so much ryte..loL.. hmm.. well my mood is betta le bah.. haii yerr... my father so sucky lo... jus dun lyk him lo... wth... haii yerrr... well i dno wad to bloogg aso lo... at penang went to eat the crepe so freakin nice lo.. realli heaven lo...loL hahasx... i bought a ram(lamb actually)..loL. so cute lo... tat one rm110 lo... expensive ryte.. mx sae i go dere buy branded stuff nia... tats y...loL but tats not the point lo...den cum bac liao.. mx buy me a strawberry..hahasx.. i gt the tinny winny one and aso the big one.. hahasx.. yea baby..lloL well, i miss alot of ppl lo... alot alot alot jiu dui liao..loL not gna state hu bah.. jus tat its alot..hmm... my dad call mx to go hm lo... wad onli lo.. cb de lo... haii yerr.. jus dun understand... no matter wad janet n her mum will understand how mx felt... jus dun understand y most of the parents DUN UNDERSTAND.

hmm.. 2day.. i n mx go crazy again... we go kbox again.. haiix... we go dere shout shout shout.. so stress lo... haiix.. realli cant take it le bah.. WHEN ITS TYM ITS TYM... so its tym to turn into a new leaf bah.. but sae easy nia... haiixx... wad to do.. we are lost n cant find the key out ... no matter wad i hav to find the key lo... i dowan suffer le... i suffer enuff le... hmm.. today on mc... cux gt gastric flu... ytd went doctor.. the doctor sae de.. den no milk,chilli,sour and oily stuff.. lame lo... den today i drank shirly temple..loL wanted to drink tequila.. but ltr i cry of pain den dun nid fly tml liao...


haixx.. tml 7.15 mit janet... sian lo.. i 5.30 mus wake up liaoo... haiya.. lazy lo... hmm.. my neighnour go sniff glue again lo.. dno wad so nice abt it.. cant help le ba.. even she herelf dowan help herself how can we help her?? as mx sae.. she is well - mannered de lo.. at least she will sae thank you .. loL


** even you treat me good i aso cant accept u de .. sorry... haiix.. you shud noe why bah.. i nid to learn the mistakes n tis is the tym i shud learn... i m n wil b single ...tats all i wan for now... haiix... the past are too hurting n i dowan to haf such burden liao... cux all its does is shatter u into pieces n put salt on ur wound... haiix.. so sorryyy..**

=)

well.. today everyting is fine.. went cck kbox tgt wit mx.. call ppl go den all cant go ma.. so we 2 go nia.. but we enjoyed lyk siao lidatt... we went to her ah ma haus.. den at the ah ma haus eat fruits.. gt a lady call mx tml go interview.. finally she may haf a job.. yea!!!! hahasx,, otw to ah ma haus we saw part of maoist..loL tgq the most tall wan .. loL

hmm..ytd we go buy shoe.. hahasx.. converse.. i bought the germany shoe n mx bought the england shoe.. i sign for member n we also gt the germany n england bear.. so cute lo.. hahasx.. den derre goes the money aso la... loL den we go eat yoghert ,take out frm swens lo.. reg customer liao lo... loL

i wan watch alot of movie lo.. da vinci,voice,when a stranger calls, over the hedge,MI3 devils wears prada etc... but no tym... sian lo...well.. stop here bah.. anw i flying to penang on wed.. with janet.. hmm.. will b lonely aso.. but at least will not see tat dumb yunos...loL

see ya=)

yea

hahasx.. so long never blog le.. woo~ so wo hui lai le.. hahasx.. now of cux at office la.. this job is nicer liao.. den i heard i may b going for the business trip to penang.. well. not sure yet. my dad approve liao la.. yts jus receive a bad news frm clarr..

well sad for her aso lo.. reminds me of my granfather aso.. well rochester now so funny de lo.. you nuo si is still as irritating as b4.. still dun lyk him.. but hu cares la.. hahasx.. today so full lo.. i go work at 1030. den dey buy food for us eat till freaking full lo... can explode lo..

well mx aso gt family prob n she stayed in my house lo .. she at house shi mian .. become freaking like panda .. xiong mao u noe lol .. but stay my house at least got someone talk to me ma .. lol now i work she oso .. so ma fan de her .. lol but she still my mama mah lol .. no choice de ..cut my hair le.. den look lyk my sec3-sec4 hair lidat...

hahasx.. so funny lo... wad onli lo... hmm.. sat mayb go work early den after work go buy cupboard for mama to put in my room,for her clothes. well i left 300nia.. nxt wk still go business trip to penang den KL.. den sure no money liao.. pay sch fees ma..

hmm.. i dno la.. hen fan lo.. go rochester mus bring my own calculator. cux i press the calculator the value lyk shit de.. onli janet press den the value will correct.. wad the ttooooooottttt ryte??!! angry lo... den zack lyk so cold to me liao.. loL i nv reply his msg nia . cux bill xplode le.. dun care. cux i wun lyk him de.. too bad bah... so long nv tag le.. cux lazi tag.. so tag one short all summarized de..

end here bah... continue nxt tym bah.. =)

haha..wo

hahasx.. wad clarr sae at her blogg is so true n professional lo.. mus learn frm it.. hahasx.

as quoted**

*Sickness enters from the mouth, trouble comes out from the mouth.* In the midst of the freezing winter, gd and kind words bring warmth to the heart. Hurting and vicious words make one feel cold even in the heat of June. Speaking is like shooting an arrow. It cannot be fone recklessly. ONce it enters enother's ears, u will not be able to remove it even if u have great strength. Speaking abt senseless things is like chewing on saw dust. Speaking vulgar words is like worms coming out of one's mouth.Speaking abt good is like spraying fragrance. SPeaking truthfully is like the soft feel of cloth. Telling lies is like entering a trap. Spouting foul words is like smelling bad odour

wad a nice saying ryte? hahasx..realli gotta learn frm it lo.. well im alryte liao.. now jus haf to clarify things up...now half ok liao.. the other half will talk it out tml i think.. i dno... loL..
so now we frens liao.. hahasx.. cux of misunderstanding den we so harsh de.. loL .. well shud b alryte liao.. ani info den will publish.. i wan slp liao nites

well

anw.. im ok liao.. fast eh.. hahasx.. swens will b the best remedy.. no matter wad.. mood so shuang liao den cum hm mood swing.. thnx to wad i see lo.. so mani to read.. hahasx... innocent? i din... i wan po hui ppl r/s?? no lo... at the begining hu ask de? i gt ppl outside.. ohh ok.. wan call den call lo.. i dun mind.. as tats wad u sae.. i gt ppl outside.. or y not sae gang.. u peps bu shuang not my prob.

well wad for i care when such peps jus cum here to sae ppl?? haiixx.. sian.. if care den i luan liao.. jus dun understand u peps lo.. so sad...

i jus dun get

its lyk the things dun link den its lyk u peps put it tgt... wad the lo .. i jus dun get it lo.. i did not n u peps sae i did.. when i did sial..hey pls la.. none of ur business den u wan chap .. nth to do ar.. walao... i use nasty words? wher gt lo... i nv put anger of wadeva in those words lo.. nv see properly ar? ( oops) i did wrote tat lo.. den sae i use nasty words.. i dno a tg den jus vent ur anger on me on the blogg.. i accept ur apology la.. but not the others. cux dey haf no rytes to care abt this tg. i jus bu shuang ppl jus conclude things lo. den cum zuo hao ren to tell the person wad happen.. cux they are jus kpo-ing lo... this matter dun even link with the main "problem"



till u get prick n u will noe how others feel. sae i dun understand how she feel? how m i gna feel it when the "victim"dun spill a tg? one day u will b pricked not onli for such alyk matters but aso being kpo.( dun gif the reason tat bcux dey ur sis or wadeva den u wan chap)

so stupid lo...

its hard to forgif n forget-

drastic

haixx.. my heart realli shattered into pieces lo... no1s dere for me.. realli nobody.. even if those hu claim tat dey are dere to listen or to even care, dey are not.. cux those are jus merely words.. WORDS!!! y will this dat even happen to me again?! i realli dowan bcum lidat u noe anot.. it realli irks me... even if it jus flash in my mind for tat very 1 sec.

shud i get bac to my "original" self?? nobody can even advice me... nobody! u ppl are not giving me a chances to even think wad i shud do. n wad i sae are the opposite.. but y ppl cant get it? i hate tis fuckin feelin la.. haiix... when val gave a pat on my shoulder, i realli feel lyk crying liao lo... feel lyk breaking dwn at tat instance. haiishhh.. i dun belong her la.. janet is no in the office this tym liao.. nxt week den cum bac. den tat yunos will b in liao.. n he noes i hate him.. i hate it sial.. i feel lyk crying n slitting sial... i cant take it liao la.. nobody i can talk to..

meixing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wher are u?!!!!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!! i msg u den u dun reply! workin aso reply when free ma.. y when i nid sum1 w me den nobody's dere???? why???!!!! retribution??? in adss i lidat out of adss aso lidat.. wad the fuck man! this is freaking horrible u noe anot... nobody noes.. the feelin of ur loveones being shared realli sux man... y tis always happen sial... tis is fated??? shud i even stay in rochester? i dowan cux there's no system at all. i wan cux i wan the pay. n i hate my life!!!! i cant take it le ba... fuck sial!!!

haiyo

i dowan work rochester leh.. but my dad force me to work.. haixx . so sian lo... den my manager wan to go holiday liao.. tml fly den nxt tuesday den cum bac.. den in da mean while wad i gna do??? in this office so luan de lo.. mam jane sae i can work as full tym at swens liao.. but my parents dun allow.. ( as usual la )
haiyo.. tats wad parents are for lo.. always object the things tat their kids wanna do.. haiya.. i dno leh.. i dun care lo.. tahan til end of may den i ran away liao... hmm... so bored here de.. if work swens my mood differrent de lo.. if lyk tml work den i will b so into it de den will happi de.. if work rochester, den its lyk sian.. i dowan go tml lo.. tis type of mood hu wan cum sial... haiyo... i until now stil dno y i take accounting lo.. take accountin so i can study bah.. aniway its jus a cert. after tat cert i may not go for degree lo... i will go take tourism lo.. betta lo.. can mee more ppl.. im not tat business kind lo.. so no point bugging on things i dun lyk.. im alreadi 17, its tym for me to fight for the things i wan.

gtg liao.. tonight den blogg... cux now working lo.. sian den cum blogg de.. the things i also haven finish de lo... now 3.30 nia. still gt 2 more hrs to go.