ok!! i'm coughing like OMG!! very badly till i lose my voice!

and i lost my runnig shoes. but the good news is, i bought a new pair :) 

it wil be a busy week for me again.. all dedicated to FYP report ( final draft by friday), poster( next wed) and abstract too.  BLESS ME! 

Ok..i’ve been overeating unreasonably! At the very point that I’m eating, I’m feeling so so alright. When I’m half done with my meal I feel full, but I’ll still finish it, I don’t know why. And by doing so, I’ll be damn full. Prolly am hour later, you’ll see me munching again!!! This is insane, despite being so full, I’ll just grab and eat. And it will never stop! I hate it! would anyone stop me from doing this? Sometimes I just feel like eating an apple, but I might end up having apples instead of AN APPLE.

Liking chee cheong fun (CCF) is alright, but I can have them every meal and when I’m just done with 1 serving I feel like having another. Outrageous isn’t it! Sick of being overweight? i have to admit that I am! I need to revert back to my old self! The self that im concern about the type of food I eat and will never eat unless my stomach calls out for food. I need my heads of broccoli, microwaved chicken and baby carrots badly!!!! Shall get it tml for Monday’s meal. No more biscuits, pretzels or any snacks!

i'm feeling a lil down i suppose? today's eating din hit me that badly but i put on 2kg! like wtf! OMG! i need free time to gym, rest and study! this is insane! im not going bongus fror nuts sure.. and sometimes i just want to stone, not eat,eat alot, gym, go crazy or sleep. whenever i shop at the supermarket, i'll buy to eat. but when i have them, i dont really want to eat. thinking that it might be too much at times. i wan to be vegetarian for the moment but yet again i want meat.

at times when i'm having my meal, i have nothing on my mind. At times i have stuff like. " omg, this will be super filling and i might eat too much today". and at times i'll eat, having nothing on my mind but cant stop. i'm just so afraid that i'm getting fat. BMI : 19? not even close. i simply dono what's in my mind. can i  just press the "pause" button?? sigh-

Don’t you think most of the time people make a mountain out of a molehill? I think it’s kinda ridiculous and plain childish when such stuff actually comes from my uncle! Well, it’s just a small issue. I’m just not aware of my surroundings and didn’t realize that my cousin walk pass me. I mean she din even bother give me a text that she saw me. So how can she expect me to know that we bum into each other? And apparently, she went home making casual remarks that she saw me. Now my uncle is making a big fuss about me not wanting to say “hi” when I see my cousin. Insane!

 Well, slept at 2.30am last night, after watching GG Esp24. Well, the fact is I can’t really sleep as I was too bloated due to buffet. I have food that’s for 3 people. And the next stupidest thing is I drank water, causing myself to feel so so bloated to the extent that I’ve attempted to puke. Apparently, thoughts came to my mind and I can’t bring myself to do it. Only manage to puke aprox 1-2 tspn. I weighed myself in the morning (as usual) and I put on weight! OMG! Not even going gym today because I have to really study for my UTs(lab mgt & materials processing)  and my body is aching from fri’s gym. Gotta head to gym on mon, wed, fri and sun this coming week, to compensate for this stupid buffet!

 

Lesson learnt : always avoid buffet or at least prepare yourself for it!