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it seems lyk i blogg once a week lidat eh.. loL... wahaha.. today vidya kumar lesson so shiok lo... jusm luv her lesson.. unlyk siew mai's so dry... vidya kumar is count count count de.. i lyk it... haha.. i miss science lo.. my fav sub but im not studying it now at all!!

i wan buy hp dv2000 series lo... but its lyk ex... well as u noe.. good things are expensive.i now left 10bucks for a week... yea yea.. hit record 1st tym... left 10bucks... loL..

well.. suddenly i feel tat my life lyk so sian lo.. dno y leh... go work aso sian... at hm aso sian.. i dno wad i do den not sian. lOL.. den mx sae this week i lyk not myself lidat... but i dun think so leh.. she sae this week i lyk so stress lidat.. but i dun hav o... den she shoot me sae... i stress aso dno de.. loL.. which its actualli true la.. mdm goh aso lidat sae.. im a kind of person tat is stress aso dno de.... abit in danger la.. haha.. tats when ppl tell me im stress.. cux even other ppl can see wads in u.. loL

wahahaha... no wad.. mx tel me she amen-ing.. but she not gna use the word amen.. she sae she gna change for good..lalala.. surprising instead.. loL

noe wad ppl.. i dno how to write "cuo"(the word wrong in chinese) . jus a slip off my mind.. den mx is lyk... *open big eye* u dno how to write??!! hahasx... my chinese realli rotting in process lo.. loL

i wan buy story book... the rules of life, the rules of work, sun zi art of war n san shi liu ji ( in eng) loL... lidat will cost a bomb liao... wahahaa

i miss kexin, chunli,jidan,jesse,miips,lian, guzheng=)

*waiting for prince charming=p

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well.. tis week work all morning except tml... its nite!!! loL... all i noe is its with mam jane n sally n mirza.. loL da rest i dno... loL..hahasx.. cool eh.. hmmm.. i sms kexin ask him wher he working now i think few days back... den now den he reply lo... loL... noe wher??? its roc... he sae long long story.. wad de lo... well.. wan go see him aso cannot...sshhheeeessssshhhh.. grrrr- den he nv explain... wad de.. tats 1 thing fuming... the other thing is i cant go bac c him la... walao!!!! now go bac no face seh... haiyeerrr!!


hahasx... now my arms is lyk pain lo.... hahasx.. thnx to fountain la... i wan learn ma... den do cashier ffountain lo.... my fav is ice choc float!!! hahasx... tats y muz, ali let me do hot choc, choc flt n choc blend.. loL... hahasx...

now i watchin repeat of s'pore idol.. hahasx... joakim gomez walao.. now den i realise he is cute lo.. wahahaha... jon is macho cool.. loL... den jasmine aso cute cute... paul is punk punk la, nurrul is pretty pretty de..haha.. their singing not bad la.. joakim cant realli sing rock bah.. dno leh.. dun reali gt the feeli lidat.. but he jus simply cute la... haha.. well wad can i sae man!! mathilda is da ok ok one.. but her voice is POWER!!!! loL.. this tym round is all betta den the previous s'pore idol la...


hmmm... ytd go kelvin bbq.. maoist dere la... den we are lyk siao lidat... jun hsien bcame handsome liao la.. but still gt that kiddy brain.. maoist stil as playful as b4.. hahasx... we all lauff till stomach pain lo.. haha


miss siti leh... haiyo.. u all hurry cum bac la... loL... hahasx.. the more i c joaquim i r4ealise it looks abit ( n i mean a lil bit) lyk mirza.. hahasx

i miss kexin,siti,clare, jesse,dna,chunli,jidan,stanley n blah blah blah!!!

AMEN=)

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hey hey.. loL... hmmm... life was pretty ok... now chiong swens liao.. hahasx.. ytd nth happen much la.. hmmm... ytd is the day i realise tat vinoth's FULL name is vinoth pascal dhayanahan pascal.. jus call him VINOTH PASCAL can liao... i dno wad he saying till i heard as vinoth pasta.. loL wahahahaha... den i aso realise tat he 1 yr older den me nia... which means he's 18!!! loL...

well.. weilun ask for my surname.. den he start callin me by full name.. siao ryte.. den today, he sae he not gna call me vivian he gna call me peilin( w the actual pronunciation) loL... lyk wad the lo... wahahahha...

today sch nv learn new chapter.. cux we go thru hw den nv teach le... loL... den vidya kumar call me peilin.. loL... so funni lo.. den im so not use to it.... loL... cux now ppl all call me vivian... ppl lyk jesse n mx dun even call me by name ( typically dun call me).. tats y

hmm.. den today i nth betta to do.. cashier can do runner and also kpo fountain..loL... until 4pm den i stop.. loL.go help stn A n runner.. loL... tat sathiya n bala is making me go crazy lo.... dno wad the hell day are talking abt n tat freaking sathiya call me i cant hear. den he sae "is ther ani prob w ur ear?" was lyk.. fuming hot liao... grrrr

hmmm.. today cindy was lyk siao( tats all i can sae) .. dno wad the hell wrong w her... wan cry dowan cry lidat. den she kip kaopeh... dno for hu to see ..loL i n mx was lyk ignore her... den she sae us we shoot her... till she sae she dowan talk.. loL....

now my hand so suan lo.. loL.. tired seh... hmm.. gna stop here.. cux its way past my bedtime!

i miss kexin.. sobx sobx( so sudden today)

reminice abt the tym tat im w julius.. (oops)

AMEN=)

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noe wad??!!! TOKYO DRIFT so freaking nice lo.... walao.... so cool and handsome... HAN die liao... den sean n neela good match lo.... loL.. hahasx...

but the main thing is han is dead!!! haiyooo... so sad lo.... is was lyk fhc-ing lo... hahasx..i stil think of " ïf Han is my bf i will go SIAO!!!!" loL... see him lyk got the sense of security type..loL


FHC RYTE???? loL


hahasx.. well.. den i sae Han betta den Kexin!!!! loL

hahassx.. life now so fun!! loL dno wad to blogg aso.. lazy to tag aso.


AMEN=)

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well... hmmm ytd nv blog cux no tym la... i go work swens last min... den i got 12 miss call n 8 sms... wahhhhh!! alot eh... haha... work swens den gif mx say i work 24/7.. n its lyk wad the hell lo. haiiyerr. dowan say la... hmmm... went airport fetch ppl... well... its for my future.. so not bad de.. mus go... haha

today go hospital see my uncle.. he operation.. den after tat go walk walk w the oversea guest lo.. haha... welll.. not bad la... online to chk mail den mx cum talk to me.. i sae i not gna chat cux gg out. den she scold.. siao de... told her i this wked not freee liao she dun believe. aiya.. den ltr sure sae i nv sae de la... dowan argue w her... cux ryte thing she can aso sae until wrong de..

well. its not abt amen-ing anot... she dun amen i nv sae anitg lo... well.. its her life aniway... dno wad she wan la. sian- hmm.. today discuss abt my future.. uncle dennis told my dad.. let me study finish my diploma n advance diploma... if decide to work le send me to hk liao... help him handle the company.. hmmm... well.. not bad la... loL.. hk leh... i lyk tat place...

hmm... monday onwards work swens long long le... hmmm mus work work work... if not no money to spend.... ( so dun sae i 24/7, cux i work for my own usage) cheers=p

hmmm.. den tuesday miting clare n siti.. yea yea yea... hahahsx.. miss dem lo... sum how dey more mature.. loL.. lyk duh~dey older den me ma... loL m18 aso can watch de...

today walk past those shops, den see the formal wear, dress,skirt,blouse etc... so nice lo... feel lyk having dem... loL i lyk it.. but ltr if wear it den ppl will sae i auntie.. jus hate it lo... dif ppl diff wearing ma... u call me wear street wear.. SIAO LO.. nv in my life.. its not nice on me lo... jus dun understand why u ppl lyk to sae me... haiiyo..( ltr sae i act kelian again)

well.. dno leh.. this few days i reflect on my life.. den relise i waste alot of my tym lo... buyin stuupppidd things. wad ppl sae abt me all cum bac to my mind... den i think why dey lidat say. hmmm...noe why? cux dey dun dresss lyk me. i dun even think highly of myself. den u sae i think highly. n this is lyk wad the lo... LOOK! hu's the one saying im frm e1.. i call u dun sae le.. u cant accept wad ppl comment abt u ma... cux u think wad ppl sae is wrong n its not logical. well ... sumtyms u shud listen n analyse..

u can sae i dun understand u. well .. nvm la.. i sae so much den u will sae i ap wan siao again.. ap den ap lo... i will try to b guai.. but i noe u dun blieve.. dun blieve dun blieve lo.. put cold water lo.. i dun care la... well tats wad ppl think nia ma... loL

hmmm... so mani things came across my mind.. well cant expect me to write all out aso ma... this are sum la... haha.. looks lyk reflectin in life is not bad n its useful!!! woo~

AMEN=)

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today go mit gugu n tessa tang.. loL.. dey wait for me till sky drop lidat.. den my gugu sae all i noe is slp..hahasx... tired ma.. den tonite gt sch ryte? loL

my god ma the leg bad bad again... went hospital... tats wad i heard la..den today see her.. her leg lyk very difficult to walk lidat... sian lo... den i jus noe my coux go sae ntu hostel.. shiok eh... i can go gugu haus stay le.. all it needs is approval frm parents... and paretns is the major problem summore..

hmmm.. den i kip spending today... sian sian sian... cannot spend le .. if nt realli die...

sch today cwas cool... so fun.. do with numbers... woo~love it... den i n mx today lyk not hapi lidat... i dun realli lyk her attitude la(as if she mlyk mine.. oops).. jus dun understand her why she wan skip class n why dun even write a thing during lesson... hmmm... but in the end nv skip la.. cux nobody skip.. i dowan sae her la.. ltr scold me again... i care too much la...

today life was fun... loL... sch fun.. everything fun.. jus tat mx not happi me nia... but.. nvm... its normal.. she lyk to sae me.. den if i sae her she will kaopeh me n we argue again.. so as wad the sun zi's art of war says, to have peace, sum1 hav to accomodate n shut up 1st... so i b lo...

today say 2 books.. i wan buy.. buden u noe la.. money money money...1 book is sun zi's art of war.. the other is the rules of life... hmmm.. if i read tis 2 book n master everything... i will b a good gerger... den cindy sae me... say wo bu hui zuo ren, so nid books to teach me how to zuo ren.. wad de lo.. sae until lidat.. well.. nvm la... dun care wad ppl sae...

hmmm... i mus buy the book... den my amen-ing process will b betta... and even more efficient ..loL

not a bad idea after all ryte?

AMEN =)

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happy national day.... hahasx.. the beginning of holyness starts today!!! yea!!!

hmmm... sandra sae both of us gt fault.. hmm.. well i admit. but not mostly mine.. cux its u hu dun wanna accept hu i m... u sae frens shud accept hu day are n not change dem... ryte??? den now u sae u wait for so long n i den appreciate... yaya... purely waitin will b no stead in btw.. so not my fault fully...

humphf

today went out with mx,jess,joyce,joyce's bf or hapening, benjamin.. hhahasx.. n i mean the osama bin benjamin.. loL we talk alot... well.. tryin to catch up stuff.. he sae i change anot... last tym a innocent chubby gerl... always argue w him.. noe no more.. loL... haha.. last tym its lyk pri sch n sec1... pri sch tym i everytym go his haus de.. cux his sister my classmate.. loL


well, pretty fun lo... jus tat i kip "lookin"la... loL... so bad... now i amening... so must avoid eye contact aso... gt one longest eye contact lo.. at admiralty mac... den i siam it.. wakao... of cux sad la... cux we until tis state.. but tis is aso the onli way... i mus go holy.... so AMEN!!!

even though ppl not on my side... sandra aka advisor will be w me... hahawx.. every tue nite will be meetin w sandra session .. loL... muackx muackx..

so....

holynesss starts today,9 aug 2006 (national day)

AMEN!

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sandra!!!!! my advisor!!!! loL.... noe wad.. u wud b very please to hear this
!!!! hahasx.. wo hui dui zi ji hen and its very hen.. hahasx... will eliminate all evil in the world n be the peilin tat hate evil!! haha.. n abit more of discriminate. at least when im prejudice im a betta person... dun u think so....

mx... cum join me with this!! =) we can do it de... less of those frens can le... those frens i ALREADY hav will stay as dey is... and tats the maximum i can go... cux after all this... i still dun understand wad u wan... i dun fancy the word tired... cux there's no such thing till u r at the extreme... for me i think u're not at the extreme... cux if u r... u will noe wad we wan... but dun seems to be..

lalalalala.... miss mimi,jesse,lianlian,sandra,kenneth,fizah,STANLEY,julius... den for outside.... wo~i miss siti,clare,cindy jessalyn,sheila... hmmm... realli miss dem lo... haiix.. well.. of all this peps the best...

mx dun saae la... she noe my everytg... loL... din write her name cux i see her almost everyday.

straightenED my thots le... so u* EVIL PEPX dun cum psycho me... since u peps call me accept u peps if im ur fren.. now i regret. cux i shud say as prejudice.. loL.. well now regret aso no use..so im gna change!!!! hahahaha..i bet ppl will love me more..denn i will b a more filial gerl.. hmm...

the verse..
*
god please give us the strength and power to fight the E V I L spirits right opposite us . they MUST be destroyed in order to keep us safe nn sound AMEN!! *

NEW PEILIN aka VIV cuming up.....

to be updated!!! =)

GOD please give us the strength and power to fight the E V I L spirits right opposite us . they MUST be destroyed in order to keep us safe nn sound AMEN!!

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noe wad?? after sch when otw hm.. gt 3 gays infront of me!!!! wad the hell lo.. 1 is couple.. the other one take the same adidas bag as mx.. den kip smiling at us lo... wad the hell o.. den after tat. we kip lauffing... den lingfeng sae too bad she alight at yew tee.. den cant see show.. the couple kip taking picture.. den hugging lo... hahas the other one tat take the same bag as mx, kip smiling at 'herself' lo.. at 1st 'she'board the train i thot is a she. buden so weird lookin.. lyk smtg missing.. den i realise 'she' BREASTLESS!!!! den i noe ''she's'' a he!!!! loL wAhahahahaahah... den kip lauffing i even took picture!!
the gays

the trans

mx new hair

well recently smtg happen .. realli sad ... hmmm.. din noe getting tired will gtt this outcum.. can dun get tired? can jus stay by? can jus hav perfect memories? haiy0oo.. all this i cant choose de... butttt whhyyyy???!!! sad sad... talk to u nicely sae i treat u gd den not use to it.. ap den u kaopeh me.. lidat wad i do... im lyk b4.. nv change.. is u hu change lo... not me...

i noe she's imcomparable la.. she's flawless... im not... i noe... haiixx.. as if the ALMOST 2yrs of waiting is purely waitin... its not lo.. u gt 2 steads during the waitin lo... in my whole entire life.. im hhurt by u pepx MOST.. but wad can i do...?

i've been trying hard to b a gd gerl le lo... but .. wad i get.. ? lidat.... haiyo... try to change le... but for u, its too late... " i dun wan to try again... im tired... "syndromes of harpin on to the matter... but.. y dun gif others a chance leh? u may sae gave chance but u din treasure.. as u noe ma.. for us things all cum at the wrong tym de ma... still promise all those shiit... ya ryte.. in da end say wad.. sry tat i hav to break all those promises dat we made...

now.. im so freakin speehlesss.. wad u sae i wanted to defend n argue back.. but i dun think got use.. cux in the end u wil sae i ap. u jus wan a outcome of everytg. but things dun nid blck n white de lo... gt feeling can liao ma... mus reallii ask n get the ans ar? when u alrdy knew the ans, and u r not assuming.

u think tat i can forget abt u? for u, u can do it de.. but not me lo... at mx chalet i alrdy sandra noe the true me... sandra saw me broke dowan at the airport when i hear u sae u gt a crush.. xin sui ... now not crush.. now is period after confession.. i hope i wun see u le... but.. she bu de... tml national day eve... go see fireworks.. u gt go... but bcux of tat i may not go.. and if i dun go , mx will scold me...

haiixx.. dno wad to do... dilemma!!!

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hahasx.. long long no blogg.. hmm.. i now very tired lo... den i resign rochester le.... hmmm. pretty sad to leave lo... well.. gna miss every1 here liao liao.. now stil ask roc lo.. last day le.. so sian til i wan to slp.. surfing the net now till... i found tis..

i took this this n this is the result

Self Assessment Results:
Your responses suggest that you are dealing with major-league stress! Too often, we are not always aware of the stress we are under and we become so accustomed to constant pressure that it begins to feel normal. Unending stress is not normal and it is definitely not healthy (in our Conditions Area you can read about some of the serious disorders that can be directly traced to stress). Fortunately, there are a lot of things even the busiest or most ambitious person can do to reduce the stress in their everyday life. Therapy can provide an excellent opportunity to develop new, more effective coping techniques for creating a life that’s as "stress-free" as possible.

http://www.4therapy.com/consumer/life_topics/category/490/Parenting

wad the hell lo... hahahasx.. din nmoe.. such web can tell u all this. when u dun nid see doctor...loL

well. i lazy to blog le... waiting for all the staff to come in work... den see them last tym lerr.. dun think tonite i wan cum bac roc.. cum here i azso cant drink.. kevin not here le.. so i cant drink.. cux normally he make drinks for me de ma.. now the ppl here lyk sian sian type de.. -_-lll

haiixx.. sAD sad... dno la... going back swens lo!! yea!!!