drastic

haixx.. my heart realli shattered into pieces lo... no1s dere for me.. realli nobody.. even if those hu claim tat dey are dere to listen or to even care, dey are not.. cux those are jus merely words.. WORDS!!! y will this dat even happen to me again?! i realli dowan bcum lidat u noe anot.. it realli irks me... even if it jus flash in my mind for tat very 1 sec.

shud i get bac to my "original" self?? nobody can even advice me... nobody! u ppl are not giving me a chances to even think wad i shud do. n wad i sae are the opposite.. but y ppl cant get it? i hate tis fuckin feelin la.. haiix... when val gave a pat on my shoulder, i realli feel lyk crying liao lo... feel lyk breaking dwn at tat instance. haiishhh.. i dun belong her la.. janet is no in the office this tym liao.. nxt week den cum bac. den tat yunos will b in liao.. n he noes i hate him.. i hate it sial.. i feel lyk crying n slitting sial... i cant take it liao la.. nobody i can talk to..

meixing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wher are u?!!!!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!! i msg u den u dun reply! workin aso reply when free ma.. y when i nid sum1 w me den nobody's dere???? why???!!!! retribution??? in adss i lidat out of adss aso lidat.. wad the fuck man! this is freaking horrible u noe anot... nobody noes.. the feelin of ur loveones being shared realli sux man... y tis always happen sial... tis is fated??? shud i even stay in rochester? i dowan cux there's no system at all. i wan cux i wan the pay. n i hate my life!!!! i cant take it le ba... fuck sial!!!

haiyo

i dowan work rochester leh.. but my dad force me to work.. haixx . so sian lo... den my manager wan to go holiday liao.. tml fly den nxt tuesday den cum bac.. den in da mean while wad i gna do??? in this office so luan de lo.. mam jane sae i can work as full tym at swens liao.. but my parents dun allow.. ( as usual la )
haiyo.. tats wad parents are for lo.. always object the things tat their kids wanna do.. haiya.. i dno leh.. i dun care lo.. tahan til end of may den i ran away liao... hmm... so bored here de.. if work swens my mood differrent de lo.. if lyk tml work den i will b so into it de den will happi de.. if work rochester, den its lyk sian.. i dowan go tml lo.. tis type of mood hu wan cum sial... haiyo... i until now stil dno y i take accounting lo.. take accountin so i can study bah.. aniway its jus a cert. after tat cert i may not go for degree lo... i will go take tourism lo.. betta lo.. can mee more ppl.. im not tat business kind lo.. so no point bugging on things i dun lyk.. im alreadi 17, its tym for me to fight for the things i wan.

gtg liao.. tonight den blogg... cux now working lo.. sian den cum blogg de.. the things i also haven finish de lo... now 3.30 nia. still gt 2 more hrs to go.

not bAd bah...

now in the office..finish my work liao..woo~.. dey all go exhibition lo.. den i cant go.. cux nobody in the office.. sian lo.. now finish my work den nth to do liao.. but one thing gd is tat i dun nid see the stupid GM face.. i hate him lo.. he siao de.. janet nv call him den she kena scolded by him say nv call him.. den jabet se call him for wad. guess wad he sae??!! he sae call me wake up la.. walao.. GM lidat de lo.. siao de ryte.. mus gong si fen ming ryte.. den he wan a acc n finace manager to wake him up... realli siao de lo.. wad a GM sial.. siao de lo...

hmm... i so xin mu all the ppl tat are studyin in poly now lo.. loL dey lyk gt alot of thing to do leh.. but we all study mdis de all lyk working now.. loL.. cux sch haven start ma.. wad onli lo.. hm.. i realli wan to b a nurse lo.. sian ryte... loL. den wan go bac swens work aso.. mus go bac dere n pull up my socks lo.. lOL.. cux everyday at office slow down liao lo.. now work in swens lyk so slow lo..loL.. dno y leh.. ev nchitra aso sae tat lo.. i aso dno wad happen lo... sian. cannot leh.. continue lidat ltr edward sae me how?as u noe edward mouth big de.. but sumtyms aso small de lo..loL i jus learn fountain nia lo.. ( haven take test n i haven memorize) loL... bad rye..lol..

stil gt 1 hour more den i fang gong lo.. ytd at cwp i saw jiak lo.. loL we lyk siao lidat..loL i will sure drift frm my sec sch frens de lo.. cux i not studying in poly ma.. dey all study poly den sum even same sch sumore.. unlyk me.. for my usual cliq, im lyk xtra de.. we nv kip contact de.. (tats y ytd see jiak i auto hug her liAO) im xtra cux im the stupidest de lo.. den go mdis aso me nia... tats y lo.. now the onli person i see most of the tym will b meixing lo.. she my mama.. but its ytd den i see her de.. we aso so long nv see n talk liao lo.. hahasx..loL

at cwp saw jiahui n kyo.. did call dem but sey lyk dun care lidat..loL nvm la.. tats wad hi -bye frens are for..loL( wow~ str8 sial ..oops- ) i now its ltk , BROKE-..loL.. but still refuse to take advance pay..loL.. take advance pay ltr nxt mth no money how? loL take swens pay to buy hp..loL mayb lo... den gna b thrifty liao..hahasx.. gna buy n70 bah..loL but i scared lagg seh.. loL i so mafan ryte..loL no fone to buy now loL.. only n70 for nokia is nice. the rest i dun lyk lo.. lyk the fone but not 3g..loL now wan buy fone den buy 3g liao lo.. ryte? if not ltr wan 3g den gna change fone again.loL den siao liao.. gd thing is can change fone la. but bad thing is waste money n u think i can buy fone meh?? sure cannot de lo.. parents sure confirm gurantee with signature, chop n stamp laminated CANNOT de lo...so wan buy fone den buy the best one..loL

ltr ppl think i rich kid lidat.study mdis den stil take new fone.. tats wad sum ppl think lo.. sae i rich kid.. wad onli lo.. im not rich at all lo... doesnt means study mdis means rich kid lo.. my lesson $3K la.. but i pay de leh.. if not i work now for wad?? ryte.. so in conclusion im not rich de.. ok ??!!!!loL

end here bah.. i now dno wad to do lo..loL so sian..hahasx.. gna go tag arnd liao..hahasx

fuck!

walao... i hate it la... i 2day do til wan cry liao lo.. even helen now i cant take it lo... pls la.. a mid 40s experienced lady aso cant take it . how can a 17 stupid dumb dumb do??!!! pls la.. the ppl dere so stupid lo! i hate it lo!!!fuck lo!!! helen aso sae at such a young age shud do things u wna do lo.. not lyk my parents lo.. forcing me to do things i dun lyk. n sae dey din force me. din force my asss la!!!! i realli dun understand wad my freaking parents wan from me lo.. all i noe dey wan me to gif dem money! money money moeny!! tats all dey noe lo.. wtf lo.. now i earn i spen n pay bill . my money lo.. den stil gif dem .. enuff meh? cant even save lo..

i cant take it lo.. den my freaking dad wan me work 3mths???? siao lo.. i 2days cant take it liao.. dey dowan me work swensens lo.. gif dumb freaking excuses saying" i not forcing you to work i wan u gain experience." gain my ass la.. wan gain aso not now ryte.. when i dno a fucking thing.. oput in a nice way is an accountant.. but the things you do are beyond tat lo.!!! as waad janet sae.. its taking over her job k.. wtf lo.!!!!

parents wan me gain experince my ass la.. i think wan my money la.. dere pay high wad... of cux wan me go dere la... i dun lyk the job how can i do a gd job for dem?? ltr get scolding how?? i rather go swensens sweep mop floor, wash toilet aso dowan go dere work lo... wtf lo.. go dere workl can la.. go do service la.. and not stay in that fcuking office n doing office work la.. stay dere lyk 1 dumb dumb lo... wtf lo.. i hate rochester lo... i cant work dere de lo.. cux i 17 nia.. rochester is a bar lo.. mus 18 n above den can lo.. so i go dere is pathetic de lo... cb lo..

i hate dere la.. i wan cry la!!! fuck la!!! if talk out wid parents dey sure lecture de lo.. talk to dem i rather talk to the pc lo... at hm pc is personal com. den at tat dumb Rochester its petty cash.. if mx go work still nvm lo. she gt take poa.. i go work dere i dun even take poa lo... helen is fine wid me.. but ppl dere all giving me pressure indirectly lo... i was lyk praying the fone dun ring lo.. i dowan work dere jiu dui liao.. at most i help helen debn after this week i run away liao.. i wun luisten to my FREAKING PARENTS! i will jus go swensens lo... wtf lo.. listen to dem i will jus die!

wad a day

well.. today start work at rochester.. haiyo.. TOTALLY office work lo.. eeyer..while doing, i was lyk " i wan swensens". look at the clock.. its 1pm.. den in my mind was " now EL period".. haiyo.. i miss swensens leh.. i wan swensens lo.. walao!!! pay low nvm la.. i go sign full tym la... haiyo.. rochester life sux lo... i realli dun lyk lo.. i study accounting aso can work fnb de lo... y mus go office de.. eeyer!!!!!!i miss all the ppl dere... at rochester can die leh... its lyk 1 person in the office lo.. tml 3pm gt insurance meeting leh. if janet go den i die liao.. 3hrs in the office praying the phone dun ring. but its a NO NO NO de lo.. tat tym the fone ring damn lot de lo...

i dowan rochester la... 2nd job in the " office job " environment lo.. n it proves it liao.. i hate it!!! i rather go downstairs do service lo... nice name for this job will be accountant ( admin n finance dept) but lifeits lyk pao ka liao lo.. secretary cum accountant cum stock taker cum clerk lo.. etc etc... haiyo.. she liao aso stress lo... i den dowan lo.. eeyer.. lyk mam lorita ,mam jane lidat lo...count our pay, check stock, CPF entry, open cheque n stuff ryte.. walao.. i dun lyk leh...

now wad onli lo.. stress w the sucky new job den my freaking dad cum take money frm me la... wad onli lo... i left w 200+ wan take money frm me.. i now mone liao lo... freak la... i rather work swensens la.. haiyo... SWENSENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!