drastic

haixx.. my heart realli shattered into pieces lo... no1s dere for me.. realli nobody.. even if those hu claim tat dey are dere to listen or to even care, dey are not.. cux those are jus merely words.. WORDS!!! y will this dat even happen to me again?! i realli dowan bcum lidat u noe anot.. it realli irks me... even if it jus flash in my mind for tat very 1 sec.

shud i get bac to my "original" self?? nobody can even advice me... nobody! u ppl are not giving me a chances to even think wad i shud do. n wad i sae are the opposite.. but y ppl cant get it? i hate tis fuckin feelin la.. haiix... when val gave a pat on my shoulder, i realli feel lyk crying liao lo... feel lyk breaking dwn at tat instance. haiishhh.. i dun belong her la.. janet is no in the office this tym liao.. nxt week den cum bac. den tat yunos will b in liao.. n he noes i hate him.. i hate it sial.. i feel lyk crying n slitting sial... i cant take it liao la.. nobody i can talk to..

meixing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wher are u?!!!!?!?!?!?!!!!!!!! i msg u den u dun reply! workin aso reply when free ma.. y when i nid sum1 w me den nobody's dere???? why???!!!! retribution??? in adss i lidat out of adss aso lidat.. wad the fuck man! this is freaking horrible u noe anot... nobody noes.. the feelin of ur loveones being shared realli sux man... y tis always happen sial... tis is fated??? shud i even stay in rochester? i dowan cux there's no system at all. i wan cux i wan the pay. n i hate my life!!!! i cant take it le ba... fuck sial!!!