i know i've done wrong once again. i'll stop sayin all sutff that makes u think i might be suffering from ED or might be one. but i need time to change i guess. cause i really fear that i will be fat again. ok, i admit that i always have plans to be anorexic ( at least once). but its the past. i just wanting to be more cautious about the stuff i'm consuming and this sound bad. you dont want me to be like your past or your fren, i know. you want me to have ample rest and eat well but im not doing it. i will eat after gym, i'm just being honest on what im eating and stuff. i dowan to lie straight in your face, no purpose in doing that.

give me time to adjust my perspective towards food. i begin to realise that i get pissed at certain stuff. alrdy tryin to "chill and cool down" i need time. you fats are like monsters. they're in you, they dont die, they jus hibernate. so yea. as long as i'm not emaciated i'm fine. really no big worry. as much as i want to skip sch and do the things i want, i know i cant do that. i'm born with defect and not even smart but i'm living wit it. we're different but we're makin the best out of it, you know that.